Lucidity

...and then
she had to accept
her lack of control
that all was not within
her sphere of influence
that love is not enough
that there is no neat formula
that its easy to slip
that she is still scared
that she is still scarred
that life is for living
but living is testing
and tests are never easy;
that looking up may burn your eyes
but far better than treading in darkness
that hope informs purpose
and purpose is a reason
to accept another day
that a trial can be a blessing
and a blessing can be a trial
that family matters
because blood can't be made
that honesty is unequivocably
the best policy
that the truth can hurt
but better honest pain
that deceptive euphoria
that giving fills the heart
and taking empties it
that addiction is a front
for brokenness
that children are a gift
and gifts are not forever;
that God is the answer
always.

-Rafa, written June 2014